I had posted my story a month ago via gofundme.com/christinasstory.
In the first 3 days my page received over 2,000 views, just by posting it
on Facebook alone to my little over 400 friends. A BIG THANK YOU
to the many of you who shared my story to make that happen, without
you, my page wouldn’t have reached the number of visits or donations
from those who weren’t originally on my friends list, who are now supporters of
my cause. So many of you gave me such courage to keep on fighting with your
support, so I have been trying my best to release my story so I can have that
voice and make the world a little safer. If I can save just 1 girl from
suffering through abuse, everything will have been worth it, no matter what I
have to continue to go through; I have already been through so much anyway, I
need to use it for the positive.
In the few weeks since posting my story, I have brought up a
Facebook Page and a website/blog which you are reading now. I have received
over $500 in donations which has helped so much with food and doctor
appointments and medications for me, and a tremendous amount of kind words and
support from many people to keep my spirit up, including those who shared their
stories with me in private. I was hosted on a 90.3 FM radio show in NYC, which I
will be posting a copy of as soon as I receive it within the week. I have been
put in contact with a publicist who then relayed my story XO Jane Magazine who
is extremely interested in publishing it soon. XO Jane has over 6 Million
Readers Monthly and 10 million online monthly page views. A Washington Gazette
editor/reporter will be writing about my story in just a few weeks which will be
published in The Washington Gazette. In such a short time, my life has changed
to look for the better.
Although, I am still struggling with my emotions and my everyday
struggles, but knowing what is ahead seems to make it easier to fight. Things
are getting harder and easier at the same time. While I have been writing and
letting everything out, it has also taken quite a toll on me. This week was
rough, I had a long day crying where I was coming to terms with a lot of the way
the abuse had affected me and my personality. A lot of emotions started to come
out and I ended up getting sick in the middle of the night a few times and
waking with bad anxiety. But it also seems to be relieving me of stress; all of
the badness is coming out, and while I’m exhausted already, it’s just preparing
me for what’s to come in the near future. Many things will change, good and bad.
Hopefully mostly good! But of course there will be those few who may try to pick
me apart like the defendants in my lawsuit, and paint me as something I am not,
or just to be mean because there’s a lot of people out there who will still want
to hurt me for no reason. But I know this, and knowing this only makes me ready
to ignore those filled with ignorance, and continue on my journey respectfully
so I can help make our sports safer and help spread awareness and signs to
children, teens, parents and teachers around the world. Hopefully
in a year, I will be able to look back at this first blog post that was just
starting everything, with a completely new and healthier lifestyle and growing
as a strong independent woman with love at my side, and have hopefully made a
difference in a life or two.
Thanks for reading!